There are times when the best of ourselves are brought forth when we struggle through the trials and sufferings of this life, especially when idle or distressful words can only increase the pain without substance. Some are only able to do this in one try, others aren't as fortunate. The majority of those who carry this gift often times use them improperly, which may only work to fuel the madness of it all or suppress it for awhile until it is forgotten. I'm glad that you're part of the minority.
Keep strong and persevere. You haven't reached the end yet.